Daye 103 / Jan XXV

a friend
asks me
where i've been
for the last month
why i've been to the moon
i say
but january is where i think i am now

jan is always such a cold month
she says
and all the terrible disasters
involving astronauts
have happened in january
with february just around the corner
why is that?
that i cannot answer
i say
smiling

on pemberton street
in the fog
a boy walks up to us
and asks if we would like to buy
some plant food
i tell him not to bother us
he shrugs his shoulders
and wanders off
to bother somebody else instead
the big freeze
is not over
there's no more snow or ice
but it's cold cold cold
and there ain't a drop
of hot water
in my hot tank
the shower runs cold
so does
the blood
recording recording recording
is the only thing that keeps me warm
during the long nights
but once it is finished
i can no longer listen
to my songs
for all i can hear
is the imperfection