Daye 96 / Phosphorus Light Night V

1
we are in a garden
we are on top of a hill
somewhere out in the countryside
i can see the lights of the city
golden in the distance
it's early evening
it's cold bitten
it's frosty
green curtains of light are moving slowly
across the sky
and we've only just now learned how to live
in the ephemeral city
after thirty years
and i'm glad that you happened to be here tonight
i 'd feel uncomfortable otherwise
it's too quiet
it's too dark
i am too empty
it is too regular
too much to take in
the garden seems to have no boundaries

2
i was always half-asleep
before we...
i mean before tonight
and now here we are and
you're as clear as phosphorus light
and i never saw you this way before
i never told you how beautiful you are
but then i never really noticed
the way that the light reflects off your dresses
or the way it ripples as you move about

3
once long ago
in the middle of the first night
or in the middle of your dream
i awoke you
to say i love you
and i imagined that you smiled in the dark
or that you had muttered something reciprocal
before you fell back asleep
i imagined that i'd heard you say
something about me having an odd sense of timing
but now i think that what you must have said was
"you have an odd sense of time.."
which is something else entirely
and i never understood just what you meant
until i discovered that we are all living in a loop
which is the way that love is
when it appears
it makes you feel giddy at first
and then it just makes you feel...

4
you hold up objects
in the night
and i try not to look at them
too closely
for in the darkness
they glitter
or else they only reflect back the darkness
or they reflect back whatever is out there in the garden tonight
or whatever it is in you and i
that we are always trying to forget

5
now here we are
and you're clear as phosphorus light
and i never saw you this way
nor did i ever tell you how beautiful you are
or that i love
the way the light reflects off your dresses
or the way it ripples as you move about
or the way it ripples as you move about